tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2339303059074627867.post3587396256858742438..comments2008-10-28T20:17:23.164-05:00Just a smalltown girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04562245873939567556noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2339303059074627867.post-12783507878157687482008-10-28T16:51:00.000-05:002008-10-28T16:51:00.000-05:00I'm not really sure where to begin or even what to say. I truley understand how your faith can be waivered at this point...I've honestly been there done that, just probably not at the magnitude you have with losing a precious life. We're in the process of something HUGE in our lives right now, something that I had to give up fighting with God about to even begin to achieve. I have wonderful Christian friends that surround me daily with fervent prayer and a magnitude of trust and security I could never even find with my own family. Our God is an awesome God, and yes he COULD do everything you mentioned and more but he chooses to see what WE would do...he gave us the freedom of choice with the hope that we would choose the choice that HE chose for us. Sometimes it takes us sitting down and going over something for the millionth and one time to really get what it is He has been trying to tell us. I am in no way saying that my faith also isn't pushed to the limit when I see people like us suffering financially, emotionally, physically all while non-Christians seem to have it so easy. But even as I waiver I am also reminded that Christians are tested daily to see if they REALLY are trusting and believing God...to see if God is the one in control and not the co-pilot in our lives. The eternal rewards far outweigh the earthly rewards...at least that's what I have to believe to make it daily. When I surrender my battles for Him to take care of it really does all fall into place. Take for instance...we are 4 months behind in nearly every one of our bills, maybe 2 months behind in our utilities hence the reason they're not off yet, BUT what has taken us 4 months to do is working out to be undone in just 4 WEEKS. I've prayed, I've surrendered, I've listened, and I've followed the path the HE brought my way and I'm obeying and guess what...IT'S WORKING!!! These things are so very hard to explain to people that have never been in a place with our faith like you and I have been in, but you and I both know He's there...it's just up to us now.<BR/><BR/>I'll be praying for you and your family, and I do hope that you find that peace you so desperately have been searching for lately. I love you Kat.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13546511183920760231noreply@blogger.com